I want to escape this reality and enter a world of pure fantasy and bliss so that I may forget all my troubles and my worries. I want to be filled with ecstasy and euphoria, living life with the ultimate happiness and soar through the skies with my wings which will lift me up high.

This desire, it is a wishful dream that fills me up and takes me away when I daydream, forgetting my responsibilities and everything intertwined with this life. I want to let my soul fly free - I want to recover that feeling I have lost. I want to feel like me once more.

My hopes and aspirations for the future only continue to wither and deteiorate as I reflect upon my present life and how unfruitful it has been. I am like a cherry blossom tree after the spring, that has been nurtured by nature only to remain in an unsightly state throughout the whole of the year. When the time comes when I am supposed to bloom in beauty, I have nothing to clothe my naked existance and I appear nothing more than a pitiful state.

There as so many things that I wish for but everything seems to be out of my grasp. This is the harsh reality in which I exist within day to day, from dawn till dusk. There is no means of persuing, only desire and the hollow feeling of emptiness at the end of the day when nothing has been achieved. I want things to change, but I don’t want to lost myself even further into the dark cloud of confusion and misery.

Complete helplessness is what I feel. I’m on the verge of letting everything disappear and to fall into that trap, all because I’m exhausted from pretending everything is perfectly fine when inside, I know that everything rages within me like a war. The mind verses the heart, the spirit fighting the soul. Each element, fighting for dominance, insisting their way is right only drives me into deeper confusion on what path I should take - I will never know one is the correct way to walk.