People say that hate is a strong word
 But so is love
 Yet we throw it around like its nothing
 I'm Andrielle and I'll let you get the best of me.


PROFILEY

I am a wandering spirit tangled in the shit of this transient thing called human existence. I'm the product of the things that have happened to me and the decisions I refused to make. I am nothing different than other people, I am pretty normal-- well, I thought I was unique back then but people started claiming they were unique too, so, hello reality.

EXITSY

Pausiu Jio Denielle James Crisa

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
10:33 PM

As I sat there, just fantasizing, about what its like to be with HIM. But I knew that would never happen.


Now i'm falling again for a guy that I know that would NEVER reciprocate these feelings.
Bet he doesn't even know I exist.
And thats what hurts me the most.
I am just one of the billion girls that's madly in love with him.
Of course, I would be a hypocrite if I tell you that he's not HANDSOME
But when I heard his voice for the very first time, I just got this feeling that I will fall for this guy.
Yeah and he's very cool too^__^
And every time I hear him sing, I think I'll melt.
[im sounding like a lovestruck fangirl]
I really love that voice. Especially when he sang monsoon.

"when reality fails us, at least we still have our dreams" but I know that "the worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves" so I just know that i have to stop in fantasizing about him . And now I am asking myself AGAIN AND AGAIN why do I have to FALL FOR YOU. Well here goes nothing this poem is for you..
When it hurts so bad
Why does it feels so good?
I wish all this made sense
I wish I understood.
Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside
But i can't stop thinking of you no matter how hard I try..

I know you don't know how I feel about you
And I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you
But it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you,
Why does it has to be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
Knowing that i can't have you keeps me awake at night
I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me
To look into your eyes
Be held in you arms...then I'd really be happy.

Right now tha distance between us is out of control,
But I'm still hoping one day soon,
I'll get what I'm wishing for..






Will you ever notice me...