I am a wandering spirit tangled in the shit of this transient thing called human existence.
I'm the product of the things that have happened to me and the decisions I refused to make. I am nothing different than other people, I am pretty normal-- well, I thought I was unique back then but people started claiming they were unique too, so, hello reality.
Pausiu
Jio
Denielle James
Crisa
March 2008
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May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
Your mind says you don’t want to love him anymore,
Touch It Silent
Promises broken and words unspoken.
I will never be able to measure your devotion.
Broken hearts and healing open wounds,
Pain is something I never thought that you knew.
Forever separated but always reunited;
My contradictory presence continues to be ignited.
My farewell, the silent goodbye.
Nothing shall ever happen again between you and I.
i noticed that I have'nt been posting lately. Well I can only tell you one thing, this summer is the worst ever!
Time has frozen still, as I am taken to my sanctuary of peace within my mind. Everything is as peaceful as a crystal clear lake surrounded by greenery underneath a blue sky in a place where no one else can enter except for myself.
I’ve been hyponotized into serenity - I never thought it would be possible. With my eyes open or closed, all I can see is a warm light with the feeling of happiness and love surge through me ever so slowly, but surely. Its as if a pebble was dropped in the middle of my crystal lake, rippling from the center to the outer edges, affecting the whole entity.
I have found my inspiration, and there is no way I can ever let it go. It has become my love, taken over my heart and taken a tight grip on my soul. Perhaps it was fated - are we bounded by the red thread? I sincerely hope that we are, because then I know something will always keep us connected.
Though my body yearns to be rested, knowing quite well I have quite an occasion tomorrow to attend, my heart and mind seem to be at unease for reasons which I cannot even understand myself. I have laid in my burgandy quilted bed for more than an hour an a half with no success of getting any shut eye.
My mind did not seem to care as it wandered off to heartbreaking but somewhat blissful daydreams in which can only exist within my wishful thought as I continued to lay in bed, trying to decipher the meaning behind the hollow feeling which had taken up residence in my heart tonight.
At first, my instinct was that someone close to me was also at unease and thus, sharing their connection but there is no way for me to verify such a occurance. Though it still may be a possibility, its not quite the answer that I am seeking at the moment.
This feeling had crept into me earlier tonight as I was happily chatting away to a very dear friend of mine, one who I consider more of a part of my family than majority of the ones I am bonded to by blood. I could not understand the reason for the empty existance then any better than I do in my present state.
I have the most awkward feeling that something isn’t quite right at the moment though, may it be something in my life right now or something which will occur tomorrow during my playful expedition.
Regardless of this mysterious emotion currently present within my being, I do need to lay myself to sleep but my efforts are proving fruitless thus far. I also had the urge to write and describe this vibe for no particular reason.
Hopefully I will be able to get the beauty sleep I wish for now.
This is a song by first lady.Even though I really hate this song, this is exactly the song that i can really relate to rgith now..
It’s summer; the sun’s smiling brightly
But autumn reigns inside me.
I feel like a tree who just lost a leaf
Because you left; now inside my heart
Is a terrible heartache.
Help me realize I am no tree
And you are not a leaf;
You are a river, and I am a creek.
Though we are from different worlds,
We came to travel side by side;
But the time has come that we must sail apart.
I flow on by, as I know you would.
Have faith, let us both believe
That we will intertwine somewhere, someday again.
And when we each reach destiny’s ocean
Trust that I will have a smile for you, my friend.